Who am i?

by :Angel DeSouza


Lost child, lusts?
drowned in the world of creation and imagination..
no more do i want to live in this world. My world alone is beautiful than the world you see.. Reality. Please dont take me there.. i dont know it, i dont know no more. I dont want to know more.
I fear, i cry, i lie, i fight.. where?..Within.
Victim of hurt, Victim of pain, found by the responsibilities of a son, caught and tied by the dreams of my father. Tears shall spill from my beloved mother's eyes, her heart blamed by my father.
I live the world of blames. A world that only love is my redeemer, No God. No Angels. No lovers... My heart alone.
God's there now.
I run, run from whom.. myself.
I was once bounded by the images of witchcraft. happy to my eyes, lord saved me.
He saved me again and again, wiped my tears of grief at his face, he wipes love all over my soul.
Lovers.. pleasures just last for two months... sex and sex,, and lusts rule over me..
Freedom unrevealed, restricted by my soul, me.. who am i?..
i search.. i search,, i cry.. i cut. hearts been cut.
confused, defused.. forbidden..

Last and lest...
now i know.
I am still that same child but no more the same.
Image of a child who roams for someone to love, love to represent as a father..
but no.. im no more. like that..
im changed im an individual hunger to govern me..
knowledge to seek.
no more.. i dnt want to be a alone..
i dnt want to search more..
i dnt want to flirt for lusts..
I want to be.. silent..
i want to be... patient...
i want to sit.
i want to breath.


Above all...
i want to be..me..
Loved.. by someone to eternity.